Kinda Crazy!!!

Hate by itself is the emotional dynamic of the ability to sustain long periods of concentration and meditation. It does not require an object to focus on (it mirrors pure love in this respect) ; it is a general-purpose tool for cutting positive attachments, especially in relationships (for example, pride in hate mode rejects another person, whereas hate by itself rejects any pleasant attachment to the other person). Hate produces clear thinking and strengthens a person’s will power. It supports the desire for solitude. It cools the mind and may easily be mistaken for a mild sense of peace. It is likely to be the prevailing mood when a mediator claims that they are no longer acting from a sense of ego. The skilful way of using hate is to clear the mind of redundant attachments and desires.
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Hate is related to hurt out of a sense that someone has done you wrong and you deserve better treatment.
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I HATE to think that I am a HATER but there seem to be more and more people that I am certain I HATE. I’ve thought a lot about this emotion because I would much rather LOVE. I came to the conclusion that most of the people I HATE are people who have been HATEFUL to my kids. I have always been of the opinion that if you don’t like me that’s fine because chances are I don’t like you either. I have certainly allowed many people to walk all over me and treat me badly and haven’t really cared one way or another but doing that to my kids is a whole other thing. I freak, flip, have a “CT”. I’ve already mentioned Mr. FF in previous posts. Well there is another person…we will call him Mr. Pee. He was very HATEFUL to my son for a period of time and unfortunately I run into him here and there. I am not one to be rude to anyone so I just keep my distance. If I must walk past him I do just that and say nothing. If he says something to me I answer politely and move on. If he approaches a group that includes me I move on to another area. Recently my son and I ran into Mr. Pee and he came up to my son and acted like they were best friends. J was very polite and answered all his questions about where he was going to school and how college baseball was going for him and I just kept on walking and paid no mind. Mr. Pee went his merry way and J joined me. A few days later I saw someone who knows very well how I feel about Mr. Pee. He saw Mr. Pee a few days after Mr. Pee saw J and I and proceeded to tell him that I stared at him and shot daggers at him and he doesn’t understand why I f-ing hate him and he told him that I am crazy. I told him that Mr. Pee is well aware of why I f-ing hate him and is clearly paranoid (among other things) because I barely looked at him and if I had stared at him I would have to gouge my eyes out. So I came across this t-shirt (which is the reason I am sharing this story with you). It is now my favorite t-shirt and I hope to be wearing it the next time I see Mr. Pee (and I will be sure that he knows exactly what it is like to have daggers shot at him). CRAZY…he ain’t seen nothing yet!!! Hahaha



Well now that I got that off my chest I can tell you what a nice relaxing week I’ve had. No baseball has meant that 1. I can catch up on all the things I’ve let go around the house. (This is going to take a while) 2. We took a weekend and went to the camp which was pure relaxation and enough free time to read/finish a book.



3. Then more relaxing time at home (I started reading another book). I even spent time relaxing on the deck. I haven’t done that since early spring. 4. Shopping (for something other than baseball stuff) 5. Eating three (or more :) meals a day. I haven’t done that since early spring either. 6. More time to blog…I know you all are thrilled about that! The only thing missing is the beach oh how I would love to go there for some R&R.

The crohns beast has been quiet during this resting time except for the last couple days. I have had some pain but so far today I’ve been fine. I think the Cimzia is helping keep the beast happy for the most part. The Vitamin B12 and D3 seem to be keeping my joints happy (very little joint pain since I’ve started those). The new medication for my migraines has been helping but I’m still getting headaches a few times a week so he increased the dose. I hope that helps. J will be moving back to school next week :( and B is having surgery again (the cyst is back) on August 20th. I’m trying not to let the stress of that feed my beast!!! Well I think I'll go relax...

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